Truth Time

After the Bell's diagnosis, I've really been trying to keep a positive outlook on everything. I'm not one to want the entire world to revolve around me, and I don't think that my issue(s) should be thrown onto the shoulders of those around me, especially those I love. So I've really put an effort into keeping my attitude good. 

Well, sometimes you just can't be "good" all the time. The truth is I'm frustrated, scared, I look funny and my face hurts. I try to sing during worship at church and youth group and I can't because the left side of my mouth won't move and my left ear is super sensitive to sound and I have to hold it so this piercing ringing sensation will stop. I went walking yesterday and tried to return a smile at the random lady jogging past me and I couldn't do it because I've temporarily lost the ability to smile. I have to take out my contacts or not wear them at all because my left eye doesn't blink and they dry up easily. My face gets tired and it just hurts most days. 

I've honestly been good for the most part, but there are moments, like right now, where I just want to cry. I just want it to be over. I want to be back to my normal self again. 

God's promise to me (and to you!) is that in my weakness, HE IS STRONG. I am clinging to this promise for this little season in my life. It's all I know to do. And I know that if I am faithful to Him, that He will bring light to my little situation. Thank you Jesus.

So, sorry for "throwing this onto your shoulders" today. But it was truth time, and sometimes, you just gotta be real people. :) Thanks for praying <3

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